It's no secret that the last couple of decades have been a whirlwind of technological advances throughout the world. We're experiencing a period in time that succeeding generations are likely to read about in history books and we could very well be in the center of a technological revolution, which, like most experiences, is unfathomable until it has transpired.
One of the most interesting and influential developments in technology would have to be the progression of the printing press. The first printing press, invented by Johaness Gutenberg in 1455 brought along a huge change in the world of publishing. Since then, cultural influence through tangible literacy has increased rapidly and allowed for individuals as well as corporations to print thousands of copies of texts with, virtually, the touch of a button. The printing press has evolved from a huge, barbaric, torture-device-looking machine to a chain of streamlined mechanisms which require little human labour.
Stop.
I need you to put down the pencil and listen to me for a second. I need you to pause your breath and tune to my frequency, because I’m throwing my heart on the airwaves and I need you to be alive to hear it. I need you to follow my words even when they’re stumbling, tripping, falling on their face.
This is just going to take a second. I promise.
I think you should know that when I woke up today I was tangled in morning breath and your whispers. I think you should know that I’m dreaming with swollen lips and bleeding cheeks because I keep biting down to stop myself from saying what’s on my mind. I think you should know my mouth is betraying me and when I brush it off, what I mean is, please, for the love of everything, know that I am terrified.
And, I think you should know, despite the fact that I am trembling with needs, I don’t want it. I don’t want to count down the seconds and drag out my day. I don’t want to have to constantly dislodge my heart from the back of my throat when you don’t even know that you jammed it there. I don’t want to write instructions on how to breathe on my walls because suddenly I’m constantly needing a reminder.
I don’t want this.
Because it blindsided me, it plucked me off my track and threw me into another orbit. I was happy with where I was going and suddenly I’m holding my head between my hands with my tongue getting stuck in the why’s. I’m beating my dashboard because I didn't ask for this. I'm incoherent and confused and blindfolded and lost in the middle of the city.
You should know I could pick better. If I wanted to trip like this, I’d find someone safe. I'd find someone with arms around my waist who would make sure I didn’t slam my jaw on the concrete. not this. I wouldn’t choose to fall without a net. I wouldn’t choose to choke up my heart and spit it out at your feet. But I didn’t choose, my tires slipped on the black ice and I’m careening out of control. I don’t have a choice, I’m pretending to clutch the wheel but no one knows better than me that I’m going to crash into the center divider.
I guess what I’m saying is: I need you.
I guess what you need to know is: it makes me mad as.